Scunnered

 Another Friday when I’m Scunnered that Glasgow City has been kept in level 3. Sort of accept it now and no meltdown this week...  just seems bizarre it’s the only,tiny bit of the uk now under these restrictions. 

On another note I’ve been reading I am an Island in book rather than kindle form. I’m quite a way through but I personally found it uncomfortable reading so it’s been sitting under the coffee table unfinished for a few weeks. I’m not sure if personally I could stay somewhere where I felt so out of place. I know which island it is, not a million miles away and it’s really not as remote as portrayed..well not in West Coast terms.

21 day body turnaround was very interesting last night. We’re trying the restricted time eating so nothing for 14 hours - 7pm-9am. Of course now at 8.30 pm I’m thinking I’m hungry 🤤 but of course I’m not.

Off to finish the rest of my exercises... altho I may read a few blogs first .

Later Thursday

 Fell asleep on sofa this morning covered by the dogs cuddle blanket. 

Managed to arrange a call back from the nurse for next Monday.. not a Bank Holiday here apparently . The nurse who usually sorts my osteoporosis meds and blood tests has recently left I found out so it might take some sorting. 

Back to clearing S room. Putting it all in relevant boxes and bags for him to sort if he eventually gets home at some point , ready for my old wardrobe to go in as it’s newer and nicer than the one he had in there.

Put a wetsuit on our local page ftgh and someone’s collecting that in the next couple of days.

Had my Giraffe Physio class. It’s still on zoom but nice to do the exercises with a bit of company and chat.

Did a couple more coats on the garden planter and it’s nearly ready .. might rain tonight so might escape the paintbrush tomorrow. 

Thursday

 It’s very early, too early . S dog has been up and down in the night with a bad tummy. Although I woke each time himself took her but now it’s light I’ve taken over. No point going back to bed so a throw over me on the sofa whilst S dog quietly snores in the background.

Back later although progress on things might be slow today ....

 So I hear today 3 people have been arrested in Italy for deliberately blocking the cable car emergency brake mechanism. Apparently everyone that used it over the last few weeks had been ,unbeknown to them,  playing Russian roulette. That poor boy who survived. His mental scars will far outlast the physical ones I would imagine. Knowing his father probably saved his life will hopefully be a comfort to him in the years to come.

Been a lovely day here , met sister in law and niece for a dog walk as they are up staying in their caravan. 

Did manage to get a few domestic things done before a quick lunch then off to bowls . Is great to get a catch up and feel a bit more normal again.

Easy tea and put my weary ankles up on the sofa ...

Unlocking slowly

 So I’m back again. Inspired by others.

I think I’m going to find it hard to return to ‘normal’ or whatever was expected of me/I expected of myself pre pandemic. I’ve missed most of my activities ,although some have been carrying on online. I think I’m maybe going to be choosier about where I go ,what I do and who with. 

Everyone’s going to have their own way of dealing with the situation but for me I think it’s going to take time . 

Dogs.. missing and otherwise

So Sunday morning I get a call from my friend M hundreds of miles away. 

Out walking with her numerous dogs and rescue S hasn’t come back yet.. 

Fast forward an hour and still not back. Now ,he’s not the sort to run off but he does have a few issues so likely got himself stuck somewhere.

So phone and iPad both had to spring to action putting him on Facebook ,sharing posts ,asking for help to search. By the end of lunchtime there was a drone on site looking along with plenty of foot soldiers but still no sign as darkness fell. 

A lovely man from one of the dog search teams head out in darkness but by morning S was still missing and more seriously no sightings either. 

Facebook group was set up , chats for searchers , dog warden calls , plea to the local fishing club for someone with waders .

It was just amazing where everyone came from to help , Monday morning , really restores faith in people. And then he was found , by lovely ladies who heard a sound in the middle of a bog. One got a rope tied round her and went in.. 

I saw the message and just cried .. he’s fine sore feet and back legs but in the circumstances..well it’s not worth dwelling on that.

And I will catch up with the rest of the week another day.

Anxiety

So I bit the bullet and decided to talk about this. It’s putting it out there..hardly anybody probably knows I have anxiety. It’s come in fits and starts over the years and I’ve finally recognised it for what it is.
I read a blog post today a friend had shared about anxiety and I thought they have just got that taped , what a good explanation.
It comes from nowhere, or a very small incident . Usually about something I have no control over and it leads to me feeling OVERWHELMED about everything. What to wear , buy at the supermarket , cook.watch on tv , literally everything. So if I’m not careful I end up doing not much , then I feel guilty and the cycle continues.
SO I stick to a vague routine so the things that need doing get done anyway if I’m feeling like this and it seems to work ,more or less. Things still get done that need to be. even if it’s a bad day.
Having other health issues hasn’t helped the anxiety as now there’s more to worry about but lots of people have things to worry about and like I said sometimes I’m absolutely fine and cope with all sorts.
I think that may be enough soul baring for today. This is a big step for me to write this down ..

On a more mundane level the strong winds have calmed and it’s looking like tomorrow may be an ok day .